Surviving as an Introvert in the Influencer World
Quiet is not bad.
I’m very much an introverted person. I like my own company more than I should and I’m not keen on social situations that have more than a handful of people attending them. I don’t like being the center of attention, I feel the most productive when I’m by myself and I find social gatherings quite exhausting and need a couple of days to recover from them.
It seems like I picked the wrong job to be in, huh?
Yes and no.
Most of the people in my community circle class themselves as introverts. Having an online job is actually pretty ideal for us, because we can do it in the comfort of our own homes and can have as much space as we want to be on our own. It’s a very ‘inward job’. It’s perfect for me in that aspect, because I can to talk to people with my hands over a phone rather than doing it in real life. If I was faced with nearly 60,000 people in real life all watching and waiting for me to do something, I would be absolutely terrified. But because it’s online, it’s not as frightening.
Now, take me out of that online situation and that’s when I start to get out of my comfort zone. Not when I’m outside taking photos, people watching me no longer bothers me in that aspect, but as soon as I end up at an event, that’s when I start to feel out of my depth.
I’ve been to quite a few events now where I feel like I don’t belong there. I don’t think the reality of having a decent sized following has hit me yet, and because I live with it every day I don’t see the value in it anymore. A lot of these events I’ve been to, I’ve come across a very different type of influencer that I’m not used to seeing in my little circle of the internet. They’re influencers who have a person with a huge camera following them around, who ask to borrow something from you just for a photo and have a very ‘oh look at me!’ personality. There’s nothing wrong with that, but it’s very different from how I act at these events. I quietly get on with it, knowing that I’m there to do a job (to document the event) and get on with it without any fuss. If you didn’t recognise me, you wouldn’t know that I was there.
I always look back at some of the events I’ve been to and laugh thinking “I can’t actually believe I was at that event. Famous people were at that event, and then there was me.” Introverts weren’t made for this swanky lifestyle, but we have to adapt as much as we can or else we end up feeling like a fish out of water. I spend most of my life feeling like a fish out of water.
When it comes down to it, the Instagram Influencer world is perfect for introverts until we have to go anywhere. Don’t get me wrong, I love going to these events and have a lot of fun, but don’t be surprised if you find the introvert quietly in the corner getting on with what they should be doing! And the next day, we will be in bed recharging from all of the excitement of socialising.
So the next time you look at someone’s stories and think ‘I could never do that!’ or even worse, ‘why can’t I be that social?’. Or when you are at an event and feel a little like you don’t belong because your not the life and soul of the party remember there is also power in been quiet. Quiet is not bad, Loud is not necessarily good. There is room for us all, a space for us all. And while most of the time you might not know I’m there, I am, I,m watching and I’m doing my job.